Tuesday, April 26, 2005

its like this

imagine I'm an alien from another planet - a planet without flowers and you hand me some cardboard and a pipe cleaner and expect me to imagine and then make a replica of something I've never experienced.

Sunday, April 24, 2005

miss h-cat welcome back... there are some compensations - blossom on the trees, the chav cat has returned from his wanderings, there is light in the evenings, HEAR THAT LIGHT IN THE EVENINGS!!!


photo friday soft

i'm skiving by posting here

really I should be reading a job description before applying for a job... back later

Saturday, April 23, 2005

my top searches are 'urban hermit' and 'judgemental' .... I'm carrying on hermiting and being judgemental.

Tuesday, April 19, 2005


Glaswegian smoking hoover

Monday, April 18, 2005

I cleaned behind my cooker yesterday

I deserve a medal for housework now

Saturday, April 16, 2005


ghost woman

ghost woman

Went off to have adventures today. After all when you work 5 days a week the paltry two days off become rather precious. I mapped out a plan of activities. First stop St Columba's Doocot where I scored a bag of Kelly green wool and an armful of tapestry wool for £6. Then I went to the library and was absorbed in 52 Ways to Transform Your Life (mostly to be summed up in don't marry 3 men with unrealistic expectations and reinvent yourself as a life coach aged 50). Anyway was sitting on chair reading and F appeared into the library. Just the person I've been avoiding, the person who has turned me into a call screener, the person I have personally promised my therapist not to talk about even though she ominously suggested that perhaps we should 'explore my response to F'.

So the person who triggers all my buttons, poppers, zippers, and velcro sashayed through the library door. I held my breath, did not say anything, she walked over stood 3 foot away from me looking at the periodicals, Sugar is a completely fascinating item of modern culture is it not? I stood completely still, she turned and walked right past me towards romantic fiction. I got up, leaving 52 Ways to Transform Your Life beside the chair and walked out. Now I've obviously become a shape shifter, no doubt F probably thought I was a tramp or something keeping warm by sitting for free in the library.
I bolted up Leith Walk got a bus to Favorit and had a very late breakfast. I then walked up to Holy Corner to the Garden Centre. I was completely put out when it transpired it was shut, closed, out of business. I did a few charity shops in the area, devoid of wool, then walked to the funky yarn shop in Bruntsfield which I'd never been in.

Was looking intently at wool and checking the felting properties there of when a heard a loud and very distinctive voice at the other end of the shop. Barnsley Woman ! Fellow Stitch & Bitcher was stuck with her for a very long 2 hours last weekend. She noticed me and was about to bear down on me so I scarpered to the Meadows. The trees were covered in spring green and it was a lovely view to the city skyline but not one but two things going wrong in my planned treat day was really frustrating. I went and did the next best thing spend money I don't have on books.

Friday, April 15, 2005


photo friday resting sheepdog Crown St Sydney

I've not managed to ease myself into a routine

with this blog. Its a place I wanted to come to and say so many things I couldn't say elsewhere. I wanted to be honest. Honesty is tireing - but so is lying. And there are so many people I am lying to at the moment. I feel evasive and ferral, and put upon and frankly tired. I've got a long weekend (unexpected holiday on monday) but I'm so tired and sad I'm planning to spend this time quietly and on my own. I've got to sort myself out... I bought a pile of wool yesterday from John Lewis and sad to say its the most cheering thing in my life at the moment - that and the peach tulip which flowered on wednesday. A few leaf buds on my wild cherry. The rain is lashing down today and its gray and windy. I'll probably go home and batten down the hatches.

Wednesday, April 13, 2005


photo friday plastic

Monday, April 11, 2005

he's been found!

returned home and now under house arrest until a new home can be found somewhere deep in the country.

Tuesday, April 05, 2005


the famous Ch@v Cat

I've got terrible news... on wednesday I dashed to the bus stop in the morning and was greeted by a photocopied Lost Notice for Ch@v cat. He's been missing since the 31st of March. In all fairness he's done this before disappeared then sauntered back after a few days to his real home. I hope he's just found a really cushy billet and will come back soon. I would miss him storming into the kitchen and being really narked that there wasn't any food out for him.

Sunday, April 03, 2005

stamp stamp STAMP S T A M P

Consider this a fully fledged tantrum one which started in my journal as I sat outside this morning and its being continued online.

Life has been grim even hellish. First of all last week I had to cancell ALL of my cards as my purse went missing, then it turned up, I now have a fine array of cards arriving without pin number and pin numbers arriving without card. Thanks BANK OF SCOTLAND, VISA and EGG. This has added considerably to my enjoyment of life. Yesterday I was planning a kitten hunting expidition. (I am so hacked off with the ENTIRE human race importing feline friends seemed the only way to go). I started looking out my large net, box, kitten tempting food. Then wait... the lodger who said he'd pay me the rent on sat couldn't be arsed to turn up. Kitten hunting expedition cancelled. Evening spent with dysfunctional family with little brother and wife. Back home signs lodger may have returned in my absence (the trip wire had been tripped) no rent. Wake up at 10pm shower listen to les Archeros - try not to wake lodger assuming came home last night. Go outside for tea and left over cake notice that the shutter on lodger bedroom is still open - the bastard did not return last night! Still not home probably WON'T come home today.

Cancell my evening appointment with friend. Have to do it via email as she has never given me her phone number. She probably won't get the message as she is unlikely to check her email today. BUT DO YOU KNOW SOMETHING I'M COMPLETELY FUCKED OFF WITH PEOPLE WHO JUST FUCKING ASSUME I'M ALWAYS GOING TO TURN UP I'M ALWAYS GOING TO BE THERE, I'M ALWAYS NOT GOING TO FIND IT A PROBLEM.

GO TO HELL ALL OF YOU.

Saturday, April 02, 2005

thank god the gloom has lifted

i'm going to dry myself (dripping from shower) make pancakes and sit outside in the weak sunshine

thank god the gloom has lifted

weather wise I'm going to sit out with pancakes and my journal once I've put some clothes on. I'm sitting here dripping out of the shower.